I was young when it started so I didn’t really understand what was going on. I knew he was different and things were different, but I didn’t understand the magnitude of the Top shirts on Michael Scott well happy birthday Jesus sorry your party’s so lame ugly Christmas sweater. Things only got worse from there. He chose his addiction over being a supportive parent to my younger brother and I. Alcohol fueled rage became our norm. Not knowing where he was turned into a weekly occurrence and emotional abuse started to become something I was used to, something that didn’t even really affect me anymore.